Decadence

by Matilda Modigh

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released October 19, 2013

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Matilda Modigh Sweden

Hey I'm Matilda. (recently changed my name from Mary Courage)

My music is heavily inspired by Evanescence, Regina Spektor, Imogen Heap, Björk, Marina And The Diamonds, and Doctor Who.

My songs are mostly piano driven, and I write about anything that inspires me. So my feelings, society.. and fictional characters.

Hope you'll find my stuff enjoyable :D
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Track Name: Drown (Take My Heart)
Take my heart
And make it yours
Drain my blood
I’m nothing now
I’ve lost all my hope
You’ll never be mine
Could you tell me
How it feels to be alive?

Cause I’ll drown,
I’ll drown in my fear of being forgotten
And I’ll dream
I’ll dream of you

I fall into your arms
And escape from what
I hid for so long
I don't want this to be real
I face something now
That I’d never thought I would
So hold me tight, but I remember

That I’ll drown,
I’ll drown in my fear of being forgotten
And I’ll dream
I’ll dream of you
Track Name: Fairytale
Fear of falling
down, down
I fear this feeling
deep in my heart
Soon I have to leave this town
though I run, I can't escape

I feel myself wanting more
how could I, I ain't worthy of you

and how can I even trust myself
How can I?
Feel like this for someone else
and now I know, I'm trapped in fairytale
fairytale, fairytale, fairytale

When I see with her
I know I know, why should I care?
I know what I am
It only seems fair

I feel like I should I know
should I know, should I know?
Why I feel like this for someone else
and now I know I'm trapped in my fairytale
my fairy-fairytale

and I'm forever falling
I've lost my grip

Cause I never thought I'd feel like this for someone else
and I never thought I'd fall for you
and now-
now I know, I'm trapped in my fairytale
Track Name: Change Me
I am not who I used to be
How could I let you change me?
Compromising my thoughts of you
Tell me how I got here and now
I'm falling down,
I'm falling

How could I let this go on?
I lost a part of myself when I saw
what kind of man you are
underneath that smile
what does that make of me?

you were always the one to trust
the one I'd always turn to
sick and twisted I know it's wrong
but I can't help but long for
your kiss
I wish I'd still be in bliss

How could I let this go on?
I lost a part of myself when I saw
what kind of man you are
underneath that smile
what does that turn me into?

I wake up everyday
Guilt tears me apart
It slowly kills me inside
that I can't take it back

You are not who you used to be
tell me how we got here

How could I let this go on?
I lost a part of myself when I saw
what kind of man you are
underneath that smile
what did you turn me into?
Track Name: Interimo
Burning flesh
In your mouth in your nose
Sweeter taste
Mouth waters stomach turning
A smile on your lips
They're screaming for help, silently

If you can't hear
It's not real
If its not you who kills
It's not real.

How can you feel with that heart?
How can you feel with that heart?
Is that who you want to be?

Humming quietly
Betrayed by you
Feel it, shame in your soul
But now you're full
Their screams have died out, finally

If you can't hear
It's not real
If its not you who kills
It's not real, it's not you.

How can you feel with that heart?
How can you feel with that heart?
Just like a zombie
Just like a predator
Is that who you want to be?

How can you feel with that heart?
How can you feel with that heart?
Just like a zombie
Just like a predator
Is that who you want to be?
Is it really who you want to be?
Track Name: Reaching
Countdown, I feel my heart beating
never felt so numb before
Cold as ice and the night ahead
Sickening darkness around me
You're so cold
and far away from here
I reach to touch you
but I'm grasping at nothing but air

Wake up, wake up, wake up
I tried to save you
Knowing it's too late

Walking by trying to find ways
to tell you, I am here but not quite alive
Fear taking over every thought
poisoning my ever move
I scream can you hear me
or am I shouting at nothing but air?

Wake up, wake up, wake up
I tried to save you
Knowing it's too late

oh,let me fall apart
maybe I'll rise but I can never be whole again
Don't let me fall apart
I'll never feel again

Wake up, wake up
I tried to save you
Knowing it's too late

Wake up
I tried to save you
oh let me try to save you
oh please don't say it's too late
Track Name: This Is My Design
I draw my line
somewhere down at the bottom of this pit
I draw my line
Somewhere, where blood can't touch me

I fought this hell
I can't escape your wrath again, again

For this is my design
Watch my work of art
Let my body break
and tear my mind in two

Feel it moving
Your thoughts in my head
It's coming over me
a sense of relief a sense of calm

I've been here before
oh, I can see
all of your secrets
Let them spill all over me

For this is my design
Watch my work of art
Let my body break
and tear my mind in two
Track Name: Collecting Stars
A hint of a flame
between us
Objects in the night
flying past in a state
of rest like the unrealness

As I wept, the angels spoke
while collecting stars with you
They were dancing as one in the night

My heart crumbling before them, kneeling
before their might
omens of the red planets

Heaven spoke to me
while collecting stars with you
The violins played as they danced as one

way up high
no tears this time
just you and I